Confused and disorganised.

This has been a weird week.

I went to the clinic last Wednesday, and for the second week in succession the whole place was pandemonium. There were lots of people hopping around on frames, and so little being done. Mr Lahoti was away, and so was Debbie.

I was seen by Naveen who decided that an x-ray was not necessary. He looked at the x-ray taken 2 weeks ago and talked about the possibility of removing the middle wire next week. We talked about painkillers and suggested i reduce the Gabapentin to 2 x 300mg per day.

I got some more prescriptions for antibiotics and gababentin, but all in all, I felt like I'd just wasted half a day.

I skipped the afternoon dose of Gabapentin and went to yoga. By late evening I was in severe pain. I decided to go back to the usual dose.

I can't remember what happened on Thursday. there's nothing in my calendar except "yoga 6 pm". I must have been working on Mum's accounts. I think I noticed increased pain at yoga.

Friday: It's not everyday that there is a royal wedding. It was a purposeless day for me, with no one actually doing much. I woke up very early. I was definitely feeling more pain in the leg and took it easy at yoga. The leg felt strange, loose, and the fracture felt as if was moving. I felt odd, aimless. I'm having lots of short term memory lapses. At about this time I suspected that I had got confused about the drug regime. I couldn't remember what drugs I had taken or when.

Saturday: Disorganised? Again no memory of what I did. Still more pain though. I think it was Saturday when I thought that I should get more antibiotic; maybe the pain was an infection. The sensation of movement in the fracture was increasing. Again I was confused about the painkillers routine. I forgot to take my water bottle and codeine to yoga. More memory problems! I decided I was tired and took some melatonin at night to help me sleep.

Sunday. I asked Pete to come and help me move the VW. He said he would be there at 12:00 but urned up at 13:30. He said how tired I looked. I told him i'd been sleeping badly due to the pain. We used jump leads to start the van, and I drove it to the other side of the road. He drove me into Balham to get antibiotics but the chemist had run out and the other chemist was shut. I took more melatonin in the evening and went to bed early.

Monday. Woke up several times, and eventually got out of bed at about 10:30. I hate it when I do that. I felt disorganised and confused all day. Still in pain. Bin Laden has been killed. I watched too much news, put the battery charger on the VW, cleared piles of old receipts, then decided to walk into Balham. I wrote an email to guy at the office who has had a similar accident and has a TSF too. I read the email later and thought how disjointed and odd it seemed. It was as if I had not been the writer. I didn't check the yoga timetable and so discovered too late that the evening classes had been cancelled. Why didn't I see that coming? I should have known because it's a public holiday. Stupid. And why didn't I try to get the antibiotics?

Tuesday. Woke up at about 5 a.m. And couldn't sleep. my mind is rambling around the last week. I don't like the sense of disorganisation and confusion. I'm wondering if the Gabapentin is causing problems. The latest prescription was a different brand than the previous type. Or is it the codeine? I've taking more because of the pain. I've never noticed any effect of codeine before, except pain reduction. Should I be getting antibiotics? The pain as stabilised, and maybe even reduced except for brief moments.